The Perfect Poison

Dark Tunnel

I am not perfect. If my previous posts haven’t clarified that already, this one definitely will. In fact, I feel incredibly vulnerable even approaching the issue of postpartum anxiety. I had it after Savannah’s birth and (not surprisingly) I have it again. Fear, doubt, insomnia – the works. I’m not going to go into detail […]

Big Sister, Little Sister

Bird Kisses

When I was four, I attempted to lift my baby brother, Cody, out of his bouncer. He was crying, and no one else was in the room; I thought I’d do him a favor. My good deed was rewarded with a handful of poop, a horrifying sight for any child, but especially for a child […]

One Bean Away From Tipping

Beans

Last week on my way to the doctor I found a hidden treasure in the glove box of the Monte Carlo. It was a CD, scratched and weathered from months (years, maybe?) of neglect and case-lessness. Yep, there she lay, as naked as a newborn baby. To atone for my sins, I put it in […]

Happy 2014

New Year

One year ago today I wrote my first journal entry in years. I did it without direction, knowing only that the new year was beginning and that I wanted, needed, 2013 to be different than 2012. This is what I wrote. Let me make one thing clear. 2012 was not a bad year; on May […]

I Can > I Can’t

Christmas

Christmas is the best holiday. I think people who say otherwise are more concerned with being different than they are with being truthful. But, hey, tis the season for all things warm and fuzzy, so I’ll forgive them. Just this once. Despite the splendor that is Christmas, this holiday season, it’s no secret that there […]